I'm neither for nor against apathy

Hardly slept last night for some reason, dunno why. One option is that the fumes from me burning the ends of my shoelaces for my skates (so it'd fit to it's place) were too strong and somehow affected meds as well, atleast they got me feeling very sick.
So, hardly slept, so been rather very easily ticked off today. Managed to go test my skates after stepdaddy fixed them, they worked just great, but I wanted to kill just about everyone I met on the streets. Now I'm playing WoW, toko some sedatives, soon time to took evening meds. I'm exhausted...

Best homewarming present I've gotten for me so far, stepdady brought me tooks. Got the rear tire of my bike fixed and some other stuff fixed. He'll even try to fix my skates so I don't have to waste money on new skates and can actually save some. I guess that's good. I'm tired now though, so off to bed again.

My bike has a busted rear tire, I can't find the tools I need to remove it from my bike. So I skated to town to buy a new inner tire. My skates broke. I've no money thanks to meds. I should pay my rent soonish I guess. I'm fucking angry.

It's evening. Slightly drunken, slightly restless, slightly horny even. Should go to bed, but don't know when I could take my meds safely. Rammstein playing and I just feel like going out still. Maybe climbing on top of some hill and just screaming. Might feel refreshing, never done such even though felt like it. Spent the day fighting this computer to get WoW running on it. I think I managed in the end, but when playing I feel almost naked with all the settings set low, 880x600 screen and no mods. But now this thoughtflow has gone far enough. Off to bed I go.

In Lahti I am. Feeling guilty of leaving my cats for the first time since I got them. I'm sure they'll be fine, this is more of a problem for me. Just got up a while ago, updated WoW for myself as Riku will be at work for about 12h today I bet. I wish he wasn't, but that's what I get for being with a workaholick. Atleast I get to take a loooong warm bath in the tub and there's WoW to waste time with. Also I should visit one friend whom I made a TPS logo for since she's a huge fan of them. That I'll get to do once Riku gives me the key. Oh well. More time in the tub to soak and relax.
My mom fed us yesterday, for today there's not really any food, unless we go for chicken and rice again... and tomorrow mom's promised to make me my fav food, so tomorrow we'll eat at my mom's place. I don't feel like I'd miss my parents all that much, but it seems to be a big thing for mom when I do visit here. She's all thrilled while I pretty muchly think of the food and my boy. Food's good.

So.. What have I been up to? I visited work, got most of my paperwork done and it seems that I'll be returning to work sometimes in the fall, so I get a long summer vacation. Looking out of the window now doesn't promise much though. Why does it have to rain when I want to go out and skate?
Yea well, paperwork done, I'm gonna go see my boyfriend. Getting addicted to WoW again. Starting yet another character since there are too many hunters about nowadays to make them wanted anywhere. Um. That's about it for now I guess. Reporting later on the hangover I might have after Isojano. Oh yea, I also have to go visit some people I don't want to really... cause I made one of them a gift since in a twisted way I still want to have some kind of contact even though I don't want to see them. Makes sense? Not to me either.

So.. I've not posted lately. I've been doing sports, I've been missing my boyfriend and .... Kai got me back to WoW. Thus the no posting. Screw real life. WoW forever. :P

Yesterday, after I got up again I went skating to the town and back to buy the cats some food. Then I spent my evening playing WoW and NS. Yay for net conn.
Today... In the morning I woke up too early in my own opinion, was very tired still. Got up though and did my muscle workout before taking a quick shower. Then spent some time grinding in WoW. Made food that I've not made or eaten before and then a quick nap as usual. Now I've just returned from a cycling trip to Naantali and taken a warm shower. Time to relax. Either play or watch tv. I've done a good day's work. And tomorrow morning I'm up early to go see a shrink again, which is good since I get some answers _and_ I get my workout in the same.

Well... I'm back online. My modem was not handshaking properly with their end... even though I had it tested at their place and he said it was just fine. Oh well. I'm back online to see that it's still as boring... and now if you'll excuse me I'll go back to bed since they woke me up.

Had a hard time doing anything today. Fell on the sofa while watching some morning documentary and then just sat by the computer, speaking with Riku and not doing a thing. Finally some people answered that I am more than welcome to come and wash my bike at their house. That cleared two things for me, I didn't have to make myself any food and I got my daily sporting done at the same... as well as a clean bike, of course.
My throat's been getting more and more sore as the days go by, right now it's rather painful to swallow. Not fun. Watching hockey though, world championships. You can follow how Finland does by watching my mood swings. Atm things are good.

Today, got up too late as forgot to turn the alarm on. No wonder the cats were all over me. Fed cats, went shopping. Spent a lot of time on the sofa, drinking coffee before I finally managed to force myself on my skates again and do the same route I did yesterday. Didn't seem half as long now that I knew where I was going. That's going to be something I'll repeat every day till I get in shape. It's a nice little one with uphill most the way. One place where you get to roll down, except you don't want to as there's so much sand in the curve that you'd end up falling. Joy for them not cleaning streets. Now I'm going to watch a movie and spent my evening playing NS. A nerd's life for me.

So... Yesterday I went skating without them sticks, just checking the neighbourhood and such, then I spent the evening playing NS on VH2 for 6 hours, which seemed to impress everyone.
Today I woke up, drank some coffee, heard that I'll get a visitor and cleaned my apartment. Then I spent a while cleaning and changing the order of the tires of my blades, took my sticks and left off to look for some nice route one could repeat daily. Well I did find one, I headed towards the center of Turku, took a small turn and ended up in Raisio, which is a city next to Turku. Without water and the sticks I doubt I would have managed that trip. So it's a nice challenge. No idea how I ended up like that though...

And a edit before I forget. Yesterday I was almost driven over by a old man on his moped. I'm going down this small hill to a crossing (pedestrian road) and check around me, can't exactly see to this one tunnel though and out comes a old man on his moped and stalls there at the sight of me, in the middle of the road, right in front of me. My options where, fall face flat right now or take a quick twist in front of him and end up on the grass. I chose the grass and didn't even fall, but wtf was he thinking stopping there? "I'll just park here so she'll have to crash in to me" ?

Alright. This here is my new apartment

I wake up, walk to the kitchen, feeding cats goes ok as the cuppoard with cat food is at about the same place as it used to. Then I start making myself some coffee, it goes fine till I need water for making it or milk. I turn to open the fridge and end up in the closet with cleaning eq, close door, turn around again and tadaa.. there's thre fridge. These kind of situations should not be forced on a person that's just woken up.

My hundreth post, never though I could keep myself updating this blog even up to this.
I'm in my new apartment, connection is horribly slow, dunno if it's from the previous owner or what, mine should be 8M/1M and this certainly aint. Oh well. Got me a cool new apartment. Loads of space, a balcony to sit at and listen to the birds sing. So far so good. Still does not feel like _home_ though, but I'm sure it'll come. Only the second day here anyway, so... Back to watching GitS - Stand Alone, since my tv-cable aint long enough to actually reach the TV. Nn, if anyone reads this.