Tuesday, November 01, 2005
The cats have broken one of my dragon statues during the night, which I'd already lifted as high as possible to keep them from reaching and breaking as they're fragile. I'm angry and tired and lonely.
It seems to more depressed I get the more I have to act and lie to people. I can't just curl up and start to cry, but have to keep a straight face, act proper, so they wouldn't get scared away. Then again I highly doubt I've much of true friends around for real. I've asked help from a few, only one keeps answering and he keeps getting in trouble with his wife. others just seem to ignore me. I wish I could ignore me.
I never really wanted this blog to turn in to a whine fest, but it seems that's pretty much what it is as I promised myself to be honest in it.
I'm so lonely.
It seems to more depressed I get the more I have to act and lie to people. I can't just curl up and start to cry, but have to keep a straight face, act proper, so they wouldn't get scared away. Then again I highly doubt I've much of true friends around for real. I've asked help from a few, only one keeps answering and he keeps getting in trouble with his wife. others just seem to ignore me. I wish I could ignore me.
I never really wanted this blog to turn in to a whine fest, but it seems that's pretty much what it is as I promised myself to be honest in it.
I'm so lonely.
# posted by dragonrat @ 9:59 AM 
