I'm neither for nor against apathy

So. Today's the day for packing the rest of my stuff up and getting ready to move. Thank gods. The apartment is like a sauna again. I should go to iaido still for the day and then I'll get to know when I get my keys to the new apt. Should also visit Alko to get something to celebrate with once I'm in new apt. Can't wait, really. Will see how the cats like it :)

So. Not bothering to edit the previous right now. Got a answer from the shrink that I was seeing once a week some time back. I previously asked her if I could get a statement from her that I need from work and her answer basically is "you decided not to be treated by me anymore". Not going to bother with the bitch then, send a sweet little message back to her.
When we parted she told me to get in contact if I need to. Apparently she's too bitter of a person to keep honest to her words. Unbelievable. And these are the professionals?

Not a lot of posting lately, mostly due to blogger not being very friendly at me and simply refusing to up the new posts. Been stressing a little about the move as I have a car for the weekend, but if I don't get keys for the weekend I'm screwed. The agency that was handling this whole renting business gave me a "we don't know. We can't contact the current occupants". So I rollerbladed, rang their doorbell and now they'll call me on saturday when I can fetch the keys from them. So I'm moving this sunday. Woot. A lot of packing to do. This seems like a more normal move to me again as I've only a few days to go and a lot to pack. Less stressing than having way too many days for it :P So that's me reporting. Over and out.

So... today I was über social, atleast by my standarts. I first went out shopping with a friend to find him a nice suit. Found one that looks extremely good on him, but the wallet wants to have a say as well. Then home to eat some and drink a few cups of coffee, hop on buss and go teach the same person some skating. After I returned home from there I went skating. Not very creative, I know.
Now I dealt with a lot of paperwork. And finally it's time to open a cider and relax. I am exhausted.

Getting up to date. Friday was one frustrating day as I was extremely tired and just plain angry, went rollerblading and my feet protested. Then I pretty muchly slept till Riku arrived at 1AM.
Saturday, Rikustayed at home and I went to iaido, had fun once again and was quite the practice this time, was sweatting like a pig in the end of it. Afterwards I got home, drank a litre of water, put skates on and bladed over to a friend's place to teach him how to skate. Riku cycled along me. Seemed a bit unfair with me getting exhausted and him not.
Today Riku made the mistake of saying that we could go walk, so I took him for a 12km round to go see my future apartment. He was a bit beat in the end, as am I really. Rather tired and just about to fall asleep, but should go visit that friend again with my blades to see if he manages to skate any better today. I do hope so, it looked frightening yesterday.
That's about it. A bit more than a normal post, but then again it's 3 days worth of "life".

edit. So in the end it was a no-go with the friend, but tomorrow there'd be two of them to scare me at how bad a person can be with skating. I wonder if I'd manage to go skating by myself today still. I did walk for 12km... fell asleep adn now feeling just lazy.

Today. Nothing really to say. I feel like a piece of shit and... that's it.

Well, as usual today's post will mostly be about work. Competed against the robot on welding the same sort of a thing it was doing, naturally lost, but kept up a nice speed anyway. After 8½h of that speed though my level of tiredness and being pissed off grew exponentially. Felt like either screaming or crying. Absolute exhaustion.
Now at home I've been packing more stuff, things start to look like I'd be about to move from here now that the things I don't need are cleaned off. Can't wait to move. Or rather waiting for next weekend and hubby to curl up to.

Rather disapointed with boyfriend not showing up. Nothing to do and I'm tired. Spent thursday off work as just couldn't move at all. Slept most of the day. Now I'm not physically tired as such, but I got meds to make me sleep through today and tomorrow. Should survive even if it's abusing the meds. Been waiting for him two weeks and miss him. Can't help it. Really miss him.

Well, after posting that thing I took meds and slept for a few hours, ate something and decided to go for a walk after Savu threw up on my blankie. Managed to walk for 1.5h, Rammstein really helps one keep up speed and it did stop me from thinking too much atleast. Hoping that tomorrow I'll go cycle and try to find my new apt and a better direction to workplace from it.

Now more sedatives to kill angst and get some sleep.

Got big plans for today. I will vacuum the apt for bf to arrive, he says I don't need to, but I say I do. Then I'll have iaido practice, after that I couldeat some and then it's off to cycle over 20km to see my new apt and how I can get to work from there. Sounds like a nice day to me now, I'll report later if I managed to move from my computer.

Edit.
Vacuumed, went to iaido though wanted to stay on the sofa. Had a nice time at practices, was the only newbie there so got to focus on certain katas we need to do instead of jumping from task to task constantly. Was real nice. Now there's still that cycling to do and boyfriend will arrive sometime in the evening. After cycling there'll ofcourse be a muscle workout...

And another edit.
Ate some after iaido to gather strenght and then hopped on bike to cycle and get lost in Runosmäki, looking for my new home and pretty muchly circling around it when it's basically next to the main road. Felt a bit foolish when I found it finally. Then figured that I've enough of sense of direction to find my way to the shipyard. Not a impossible ride at all. Mostly straight road for travel. In bad condition though so not rollerblading for work. Just finished my workout and took my shower. Now I deserve coffee and my sofa.

So, Riku's not coming. Pretty muchly ruins the whole day for me. Was waiting for him. Oh well, it's smarter to stay at home and relax if one's sick...
Still very disapointed.

No post yesterday, nothing to really tell. Got my hair cut and feel lots better due to it. Today... I guess I'll try to clean my apt a little already so don't have to do it when I move. The bathroom is all red after my constant hair dye attempts. I guess that's about all there is to say. Expecting a boring day. Feeling tired and miserable, dunno.

Today I signed the contract and sealed the deal for my new apt. Woot. Now just to wait for the other people to leave it and it's all mine. Packing some stuff away slowly here. It'll be nice to get out of the city center and see something else than walls when I look out the windows.
Also too continue on yesterday's post. My ankle still wants to kill me, but now it's bandaged in order to keep it from doing that. Gods it hurts.

My feet hurt, my knees are absolutely killing me and apparently my ankles hate me as well since after a while of sitting I had to limp to the kitchen. Today at work was definedly a workout. Up, down, up, down... repeat for 8h.
Gods my feet ache.

Well, yesterday wasn't worth of a post, really. Was tired, watched dvds, slept. Today it was work time, nothing exciting there either. After work though, went to see a apt, twice as big as this, with a balcony and a real kitchen that fits a table. And I got it. Woot! I don't know if I should party or plan the move or just bounce about. I'm happy and stressed at the same time. I've never had this long to plan moving, I've always had to do it in less than a week. 3 weeks is a long time...

So, yesterday we went to the ship party, ugly ship, but likely to appear attractive to most americans (no offence to the smarter ones). Party afterwards, co-workers drunk, gave my drink tickets to them and mom gave as well, must have been quite a sight in the end. Me and stepdaddy gave mom and stepdaddy's daughter a tour around the workplace itself and they seemed impressed.
Today then, we've done a lot of shopping, my feet ache, but the best part is that a tourist asked me and mom if he could take a picture of is. Now how does that ever happen to anyone? Gods. Hilarious :)

At work there wasn't a thing to do today. We stood around and chatted for maybe two hours, then decided to welld stuff that was to be taken to another robot for welding. So we set them out and people _charge_ them in order to get to weld. Like a pack of hungry wolves. Gods, we're desperate for things to do when we can't get anything moving due to the vehicle for moving them being broken. Really, how many people have you seen rushing for work? And now I'm at home, wondering if to play OMF that I got working via dosbox or play WoW to keep up my ePenis and rank.
I have no life. It's work, sleep, weekend with bf and not, if bf = no playing, no bf = playing. Oh joy. Try and figure out something interesting to type about that.

Today was the first 8h day I managed to do, also the first day I was not sleeping around the clock. Things went fine. I guess I could have welded better, but it was ok. Not much else to say about my life. Work seems to rule it. The day after tomorrow we'll get to go see, so far, the biggest cruise ship in the world. Will be interesting to see how such a beautiful ship has been ruined to target the US customers.
Had one sort of funny thing happening when I was cycling home (I found it fun). There was a man cycling somewhat faster than me and I decided to keep up with him. So I moved in behind him to get him to cover me from the wind, made it a lot easier to keep up, but still had to pedal with quite some speed. I had fun, noticed that I could really keep up some speed, so my physical side has gotten better. The cyclist seemed to be bothered by me though as he kept looking over his shoulder all the time. It was the thing that made it fun. Poor guy probably thought I was stalking him or something. Atleast that's what his expression told me.
Oh yea, to edit and add more info of my highly interesting life. Boss asked me when I could start working in shifts again. I guess that means that I'm doing enough quality welding now then.

The days have gone fast, so to say. Saturday morning I was hung over, surprise that, but things got a lot better when bf arrived in the eveining. Sunday went by with treats and movies and cuddling, no problems with that either. Monday morning I wake up as my bf gives me my cell, which also works as an alarm clock, I get up, make my coffee and fall asleep on the sofa a few times, managing not to spill my coffee though. To work I go then, not properly waking up on my way there, shrugged that off, time to start working, just too tired, sit there staring at the floor. Eventually I decide to go and see a nurse. Go in, get sick leave for that day even though haven't got fever or anything. I come home, go to sleep for 5 hours, stay awake for some 30 mins and sleep some two hours, after that bf has to go so I stay awake for him, going to bed as he leaves and I wake to take my evening meds and go to bed. This morning I woke up, drank a cup of coffee and called boss that I'm sick. Been sleeping all day. This is the first time I'm properly awake. Dunno what's causing this. I do like sleeping, but am overdoing it at the moment.

So, got drunken, got wasted even, so far feeling good, will have to see about it after I stay awake for the whole fucking night. Not a very bright idea, but was fun to discuss things and so forth. Oh well... Off to spend the night awake.