Saturday, June 17, 2006
I slept more than 12h last night. Fucking tired still, but I guess it's the mental side of me. Was invited to go over to some "friends" to cope and not think about things, but that's about the last thing I want now,people around me that don't exactly care for me.
Went to buy a new outer tire for my bike that isn't so worn down. So far had thought that my knee just gets limp as I walk to the kitchen, but no, it's actually rather busted since cycling was pain and getting onto the bike and off it is just painful. Should now replace the tire. Oh, and found out there's a faster way of removing my rear tire than actually opening the breaks by hand, there's this catchy little hook thingie that you can pull back and get the breaks released, then open the quick lock and your tire's free. All the things one learns.
I'm not feeling much else than tired, blocking my emotions again has have the strenght after a night of sleeping a lot. Blocking isn't a healthy way of dealing things, but I don't know what else to do. Bawling all day yesterday did not help any. I'm just numb now and will continue keeping myself numb for as long as I don't run out of those quick working meds.
I'd get to go to a big party on midsummer. I kinda want to, but then again not. People will be getting blasted and I can't and should not do that. Got blasted this thursday evenin, that should last for a month atleast now. Heh.
I wish I had a pegleg.
Went to buy a new outer tire for my bike that isn't so worn down. So far had thought that my knee just gets limp as I walk to the kitchen, but no, it's actually rather busted since cycling was pain and getting onto the bike and off it is just painful. Should now replace the tire. Oh, and found out there's a faster way of removing my rear tire than actually opening the breaks by hand, there's this catchy little hook thingie that you can pull back and get the breaks released, then open the quick lock and your tire's free. All the things one learns.
I'm not feeling much else than tired, blocking my emotions again has have the strenght after a night of sleeping a lot. Blocking isn't a healthy way of dealing things, but I don't know what else to do. Bawling all day yesterday did not help any. I'm just numb now and will continue keeping myself numb for as long as I don't run out of those quick working meds.
I'd get to go to a big party on midsummer. I kinda want to, but then again not. People will be getting blasted and I can't and should not do that. Got blasted this thursday evenin, that should last for a month atleast now. Heh.
I wish I had a pegleg.
# posted by dragonrat @ 1:41 PM 
