Sunday, October 15, 2006
Yesterday I found the kind of trunk I want as a table in the livingroom and got it bought, just need to get it homesomehow, Daddy promised to help. Got rid of my father around 2pm yesterday, then I got ready and went for sauna at Daddy's and stayed over the night.
Been extremely manic lately, lots of energy in my body, but I've felt down. One annoying combination. Today I can sense that I'm running out of energy, just in bed, trying to sleep to escape my life and my mood is has far down as it can go. I'm going to go to work tomorrow again, when I don't feel like I can, but I must show them that I can.
Feeling like I wouldn't have had any rest this weekend. Sad and so tired. I really wish I'd not be like this. Hate myself once again. Tired and so fucking lonely. No real wish to actually live a life, even though I do try, but... Feeling like this won't work out, but it always goes like this after a few days of adrenalin rushes. I'm so bleeding tired.
Been extremely manic lately, lots of energy in my body, but I've felt down. One annoying combination. Today I can sense that I'm running out of energy, just in bed, trying to sleep to escape my life and my mood is has far down as it can go. I'm going to go to work tomorrow again, when I don't feel like I can, but I must show them that I can.
Feeling like I wouldn't have had any rest this weekend. Sad and so tired. I really wish I'd not be like this. Hate myself once again. Tired and so fucking lonely. No real wish to actually live a life, even though I do try, but... Feeling like this won't work out, but it always goes like this after a few days of adrenalin rushes. I'm so bleeding tired.
# posted by dragonrat @ 12:24 PM 
